My Frustration

Where was i when god had shown
how to make a happy home
lie in bed and sleep don't come
have some peace then give me some
and i know the reason why you hold me down
i won't let this fear of loss make me drown
in my bed i lie alone
scrape together bone to bone
and i can't seem to seem to find my way
i can't seem to find the break of day
i'll stay just a step away
where was i when god had shown
how to make a happy home
and i have become my worst enemy
i will survive this instability
in my bed i lie alone
scrape together bone to bone
again i have become my worst enemy
i will survive this instability
i need to breathe the breath of life
you constantly drain my life
why can't you see the breath in me
i constantly need your need
my butterfy don't fly away
if i could just take this simple breath of life from me
you couldn't take it motherfucker eternity
if i could take this breath of life and come inside of me
you wouldn't take it, i need to breathe
as i creep the monkey's back
now she's gone and oh he's back
and i know the reason why you hold me down
i won't let this fear of loss make me drown
i will stay, i'll stay
i will stay, i'll stay